You owe me a period of time, but it hurts my heart.

 You owe me a period of time, yet it hurts my heart.

1.

After breaking up with him,

she dated many boyfriends.

Not long after, she broke up with them again.

Round and round it went, and finally, she got back together with him.

But she kept backing away,

afraid to give her heart away.

I'm no longer as innocent as I used to be.

2.

All along, her friends said she was immature, childish.

After breaking up with him, she decided to learn to be mature. She

started pretending to be mature, not acting cute, not complaining, not crying, not being weak.

One day, she commented on someone's post, "I feel powerless against myself."

The person replied, "You feel this way?"

She said, "In your eyes, am I really invincible enough to bear everything?"

Yes.

She smiled. Is this the maturity she wanted?

3.

They're always like this.

After a period of indifference, they meet again, acting as if the previous indifference never existed, behaving so intimately.

After meeting again, they're indifferent again.

How many times has this cycle happened?

She wondered, what exactly did he want?

She couldn't figure it out, couldn't understand.

She was tired, she didn't want to think anymore.

That's it. I don't expect you to care anymore. I'm really tired. (Search "Qingxi" on Baidu)

The more you care about someone

4.

He doesn't meet her friends, and he rarely takes her to meet his.

She doesn't understand why.

They haven't even had a formal, romantic date.

It seems most of their meetings are in bed.

She smiles weakly.

Have you ever thought about spending your life with me?

He always says, "I will marry you."

She doesn't know if she can believe it.

She's so afraid, so afraid that if she believes it, she'll find it's just a lie.

Your words always sound so sweet. I'm not sure if you love me.

5.

He said he liked her wearing stockings.

So, she wore stockings.

One day, he asked, "Do you dress so flamboyantly outside too?"

She suddenly wanted to laugh.

You said you liked it, so I became the way you liked it.

In the end, I became so pathetic in your eyes.

Should I scold you, or blame myself for being so pathetic?

6.

"Seeing how well I understand you, how will you thank me?" Qingxi's Diary

"Oh dear. My lord, your kindness is beyond my ability to repay, only... you tell me."

"Never mind, you wouldn't do it anyway."

"How do you know I wouldn't do it?"

"I just want you to take off your mask and live a normal life, would you do that?"

"...I don't know."

I don't know how many of you will flee in panic when I take off my mask.

7.

She hugged his neck, and suddenly, the bracelet on her wrist scratched him.

"Ouch~" he cried out in pain.

She asked him with concern if it hurt, while rubbing his neck.

He shook off her hand and yelled at her, "Why are you wearing these things for no reason!?"

She didn't speak, just looked at him.

I lowered my head and smiled bitterly.

Is my love like this Eiffel Tower I wear,

hurting you and causing me pain too?

8. On the day of the eclipse, she asked, "If there really is no more light, who would you want to be with in the end?" "You." A sly smile played on her lips. "Aren't you with your family?" He was helpless; he had heard the answer he most wanted to hear, yet she deliberately made things difficult for him. As they talked, the light began to fade. In that instant of darkness, he gently kissed her. A dim starry sky, a silent city. The world, at this moment, blossomed with its original beauty.

Your "goodnight" felt like it had been centuries I had waited for!

If my sorrow has nowhere to go, who will collect it for me!

I keep writing in my diary, not knowing whether it's the pen or the memories that won't stop!

My words contain a desolation you can't understand, and your gaze holds a sorrow I can't comprehend.

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